Trials and Transitions..an angery Transgirl Rant

I have been strugleing with this all day now, trying and trying to figure out how to word this.

you see I did not want it to come out sounding like an angery Transgernder girl rant, but this is an Angry Transgender Girl rant!

so if I rub a few nerves RAW, so be it!!!


A few days ago I attended the local Kink Groups 3rd thursday Munch, its held every third Thursday here in Rochester, MN.

I had a good time, got to see a few that i know and meet a bunch of others I had not met before.

Now i will be up front, i went wearing my Foxx ears, wich ment i had to wear my hair pulled back into a high ponytail, and with my hair pulled back my face looks more male. Alos i was also wearing a men's style t-shirt that was a bit snug, so you couldnt miss the shape of my breasts in my bra, or the fact I was wearing a bra.

a couple of the people there mis-genderd me, but once corrected gentily were spot on the rest of the night with pronouns and such.

spin the clock forward a few days, and I get a note in my Fetlife inbox.

this note was from someone who is listed as a fetlife friend, and part of it was saying "maybe i should dress more Feminine till people get to know better."

thing is I am a bit of a tomboy at heart, my counsler knows this and she says that there are all types of women, from the uber Fem, to the uber butch.

but this person who only really knows me from a few get togethers thinks i need to be more female in my behavior and dress.

It take's me alot of work to look more female, I am a late onset Transgender girl, what does this meen?

I realized late in my life, in my late 30's that i was not happy with myself as a male type person, i had been near suicidal for a number of years, i did a lot of depression binge eating, this put me well over 300 pounds when I started my transition.

Top that with the fact i am over 6 foot tall, and have broad shoulders, I will always stand out, and likely will never quite pass completly.

this i know, but i have still moved foreward in transition, and my dedication and to my new life, has earnd me my first surgery letter from my counsler, what does this mean?

It means my counsler agrees with me that Gender Reassignment Surgery, is the right thing for me.



So am I female enough?

I think i will be once i have my GRS surgery, and as for now I am a work in progress, if this means i can be your friend, then don't let the door hit you on the ass on your way out, or do, i just cant be botherd to care.


ARF!